Posts Tagged ‘job’

Since I started working in the system I was dealing extensively with my resistances. I was stuck in my fears and insecurities and was unable to communicate with people around me. I judged a lot what was happening here and thus I shut myself down living completely inside myself projecting/superimposing new reality on top of what is here. This obviously created extensive separation and thus inability to deal with what is actually here. I did not want to follow the rules that were here because they were restricting who “I am”.

Now within Desteni it is clearly expressed that we as human beings have to take responsibility for every part of existence realizing and understanding that we must bring all parts – good and bad – back to ourselves and thus close the gap of separation – only here is the power to live effectively and possibility of change. So it took some time and some hard knocks to integrate this knowledge and live it. And I am still in the process of accepting and bringing all me’s back together.

The real change started happening only after a few visits to the Desteni farm where I was faced with my ideals and delusions about what reality is. In the end I realized that reality is very simple – what is here is here and it’s completely useless to try and make it something that it is not, something that I wish it would be. That is energy based approach that our spiritualists use – where they project positivity within their environments believing that this will change anything. Here they fail at the most basic understanding of the mind physics and the law of consequence. They don’t understand that participating within positive polarity they are already digging a hole for themselves where they eventually face the negative. It’s the same as being a Ping-Pong ball bouncing back and forth without any real understanding what the fuck is happening here.

So after my stay at the farm was finished I headed straight back to the system and my work where now I am stopping all my judgments as either positive or negative, good or bad, but simply seeing what is here, seeing how it is here and seeing how can I move myself towards the direction that supports me best.  That immediately opened many new doors and I started seeing many opportunities that I was unable to see before, yet they were always here. My communication changed extensively because now I can deal with real reality and not with my projections/superimpositions. Surely within that I have to “compromise” myself where I have to communicate with beings that are existing in total ignorance and who speak complete bullshit yet through my acceptance/nonresistance I am able to respond effectively and actually find ways and direct this shit towards some, even the smallest realizations for them and of course for me because I get to understand how the mind functions and practice the methods of “cracking the code”. It’s just a matter of remaining focused, never losing the sight of the real message which basically comes through constant self-application within writing, reading blogs/watching vlogs of other fellow travelers, and of course Desteni I process that improves and brings me deeper into the understanding of the foundation of the mind systems that I exist in and as – it is an imperative part of process as it keeps me in track and helps to realign my approach, which sometimes can get distorted through many different influences that “disturb the stability of water”


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Reactions at work

A few days ago when departing to my job location, which is on a platform in the northsea , i overslept and missed my hellicopter flight. in a way i can say i got lucky – as you all perhaps know that some deviation from stable systematic rythm creates ripples and thus you can observe where and how you as the mind reacts.

it is very interesting to look back at my initial reactions, right after waking up and realising that i am late. Every day i work on stopping the mind, applying breathnig application, writing myself out etc. LOL – can you get a better test to see whether what i have been doing is effective in real world. So perhaps that is the very “thief in the night” that people talk about.

So here i can evaluate myself – i did rather poorly i would say, yet there were few moments where i forced myself to stop and silence myself, not for long though. So basically i participated in reactions which i see originate in fear – fear to lose the job, fear to lose that what i have. It’s cool that the moments where i stopped myself where coming from realization that this fear is unnecessary, it is not helping me, not assiting me to see clearly in finding the best solution for the situation. on the contrary participating in this fear i create a build up of energy – and that energy seeks manifestation, outcome – and this creation originating in fear is not cool – it can only bee anger, more fear, blame etc.

So it’s exactly what happened – my boss became that manifestation. His reaction was unexpected and got me unprepared. it’s cool to see this point now and understand that this outcome was a certainty – Manifested consequance of my participation within emotion of fear. So basically within intial point of participation the outcome is already created and my part is in a way decided yet who i will be within that is not and whether i will continue the blaming game or not, will i still participate further in my emotions and create more outcomes – will i start to hate and despise my boss for his reaction. Will i try to collect a body of evidence proving my innocence, will i collect my army and fight the war  – or – there IS another choice, i stop all blaming seeing that i am the creator and i am the one who experiences, i am the beginning and the end. So the point here is to develop full awareness and make sure i do not react to anything that happens in my world – i remain in breath no matter what happens, only here i am clear and here i am able to direct self towards most effective solutions.

i admit it is a challenge to remain without any reaction within current system where people are on the constant fear of survival which creates so many forms of abuse, competition, power trips etc. But there is a solution that will stop the fear of survival and will put the foundation to much greater existence than that which we currently find ourselves in. Equal Money System. Please research that and join us to end our current abusive system.

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Recently at work i found myself being a little bit pissed about almost everything in realtion to work. The problem is real and simple – My twelve hour shifts leave me with very little time for any other work. I keep trying to bend and squeeze my days to make myself more time and do something more in relation to proscess – like writing blogs, doing mind constructs fot my SRA studies, researching homeopathy as my further study i am about to embark etc. So within this anger I end up doing nothing of any significance – just being angry most of the time. This anger or maybe i will call it irritation – makes me tired because it’s something i have to think about, spend my time on justifying it, giving energy – and that takes a lot of time – perhaps even the same time that i am so eagerly looking for.

So as I am continuosly calling all the people around me to start living according to common sense, stopping the bullshit – i decided to use my own advice and see what the fuck i am doing here. Thus i stopped for a day being angry and irritated – and looked –ok— what can be done here:  and here I started asking myself some questions- not in the angry tone but in a more stable state of being. I asked myself Questions like – what can I do to create for myself more time? Can i change my job? Can i talk to my bosses and agree on some solution? Can i create effective schedule of things to do? Can i take more holidays from work and still have enough money? Should i fucking drop everything and just leave? (hehe my anger was sometimes still interferring but here again I used common sense, based on personal experience, and saw that these kind of solutions are just a recipe for more trouble).

Iterestingly enough i also found part of the solution within looking at people closest to myself, one guy, and when talking to him and seeing his main points that he exist in and as – i came to see myself in him and how i was doing the same thing –  and the next moment as we openly communicated we saw our limitation and decided to be more direct within our environment – stating more clearly and loudly what we need from it. Immediately the fog, that was created by irritation and anger ,cleared and i could see a little step that i can take to make my conditions here to be more in the service of my needs.

In the end i see that i am alone responsible for how i experience myself and that it’s me who holds myself locked in bullshit by being angry asshole constantly existing in the backchat where I deem everyone as evil while my secret actions clearly show that the real evil here is me.

It’s very important to understand that people don’t really know how to read, nor are they really interested, your mind. Whatever you want to get, do, accomplish, create – you must actually do it by clearly directing your environment, communicating with people.

This anger and irritation thing is more coming from some childhood years where we were lying in the crib and upon experiencing some kind of uncomfortability we would start crying and thus expressing our dissatisfaction-  and of course our loving parents, not wanting to hear the endless screams would attempt all possible solutions to shut us up – and usually something would work and things were cool again for a while.

I say it’s time to grow up, stop the cryies and actually tell to the world what the fuck is wrong here and what actually must be done to correct the curernt conditions – EQUAL MONEY SYSTEM is not a cry but a real directive solution that will end all cries of life. It’s the fucking end of slavery – and that really matters.

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PUTTING on a bright face at work could leave you feeling miserable” research shows after studying a group of bus drivers for two weeks.

“Smiling for the sake of smiling can lead to emotional exhaustion and withdrawal and that’s bad for the organization” from an article in



It look like pepole tend to overlook long-term results in most of their actions. All they see is the immediacy of the moment without any consideration or understanding about the inner funcionality of human behavior.

Denying your true state of being by presenting a lie to me looks such a simple story with such an obvious devastating result -that i find it a little difficult to understand the many organizations that force people to keep that stupid behavior. 

Yet, if one closely observe the whole thing it’s obvious that a lot has been built on this deception. I have just thought about myself when i used to be depressed and feel down- and how i would be looking for something to uplift me – an yeaheh… I can always go to a shop or pretty much other private institution and get some nice doze of attention – i can even seek some department with a nicely looking female and use this unconditional service of the “caring” system.

Isn’t that a big issue to be considered by shopaholics?

However when I am in a normal state of being, when I am aware of my environment and when i considered more of reality, not just my own interests. Then i am fucking angry at all this farce and the clown robots around me. Of course i can’t judge the poor guys ad girls because as they say: “I’m just doing my job”. And yes if you don”t put a fake smile you can pretty sure get the risk of losing your job. And without job/money it’s just not cool in this world.

Equal Money system will end all this abuse – people will have the basic support at all times and with the fear being out of the equation – no one will have to pretend to be happy when they are full of rage, to be cheerful when feeling like shit, to be lovely when the man in front of you is repulsive.

Only then we can see the real state of humanity and only then we can find the real cure – not just putting the fake mask of sanity and pretend that it’s ok. It is not ok.

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